Not forgotten

Next week my child would have been 1! 1 year old and Gizmo is not here. It really pisses me off. I'm pissed this week. Just not a happy camper for multiple reasons. Why is my child gone? Man these anniversaries/birthdays really get to me. Christmas wasn't terrible but Wednesday is going to be bad. Whatever it's bullshit. I'm sick of continuing to pretend like I'm okay. I'm not okay. I'm still not okay.