Long Week

It has been a long rough week. Something has got to change soon, seriously.

I hate being home by myself. Unfortunately and fortunately my husband is at work trying to get a new job.

Oh and our ceiling leaked last night so now we have a hole and we have to get a new washer. Really 2011, really? On a positive note, I'm cranking up my ebay selling again. I need new clothes for spring/summer and I don't have a lot of $ to spend.

Trust, Faith and True Colors

I normally don't post during the day but we just had an incident at work. A coworker and I just got in trouble. We both work hard and try to make sure that what goes out of this office is top notch (granted we all make mistakes). I guess that's why we work so well together. Anyway, apparently correcting someone when you know they are wrong is considering talking back. Wow!

I was taught to do the best job I can do and be proud of my work and respect others in doing so. How is it that we can be disrepected and nothing is done, yet we correct others who are wrong in order to make sure we continue to provide correct and accurate information to our clients, but that's considered being disrespectul. I'm confused.

My faith and trust in people is really diminishing. You think people have your back but sometimes those are the ones who don't. Really sad and upsetting day and it's only 11:00 a.m.

Love Michael

Keep on loving what is true and the world will come to you, you can find it in yourself

....Michael Buble (Hollywood lyrics)

No words

I actually have no words today. I am mentally and physically exhausted.

Lonely

People think they know me, but they don`t. Not really. Actually, I am one of the loneliest people on this earth. I cry sometimes, because it hurts. It does. To be honest, I guess you could say that it hurts to be me.

--Michael Jackson

Sadness

I'm so very sad today. I'm very overwhelmed at work and so preoccupied with missing the baby. Plus I think I'm getting sick again. I feel so alone. I am alone.

Unreal

I am supposed to be a mom now, but I'm not. Instead I am sitting in my room alone. There are a few folks who actually remembered what today is...I kind of had an inside bet as to who would call, etc. and here are the results:

Email:
David

Text and Phone:
Jess

In person:
Everyone from work..well the girls at least (especially "ninja")

Phone:
Grandma

That about sums it up. Seriously that's all. I'm a little shocked but not surprised.

My balloon release (by myself) was really nice. I'm going to post pictures tomorrow. I emailed two adoption agencies yesterday, one contacted me today (thanks Aunt Debbie). I've not made a decision just want information.

Today is almost over. Just as I anticipated, just another day for most other than those I mentioned. Anna Grace Simpson (yeap that's the girls name I decided on) or Robert Franklin Simpson V (there's the boy name) are extremely missed.